Tuesday, April 7, 2009
{ 8:27 PM }
life is full of drama.
seriously, that's what she thought.
eventhough things can be as complicated as it is,
yet still, she be able to smile. cheer.
easy say, she can run but she can't hide.
no matter how much fun she created, feel the energy of joyness,
feeling miserable is still there.
intact.
there's a little sorrows deep down inside her.
sometimes she feel like dying.
how she wish god end her life fast and that can make a fullstop of her life.
nobody hurts. nobody will find her and no problem any further.
all put to an end.
how she wish it can be that simple.
that's what in her mind,
all the time wondering, second-guessing and visualising suprisingly distorted thoughts.
when night falls,
the most unbearable moment to face.
alone.
yes, the word, alone.
forced herslef to sleep but to no avail,
stayed awake all night,
running through all the unanswerable questions.
Each time her lids grew heavier and neared closing,
another question would be flung from the depths of her mind, forcing her lids to open again.
Much-needed sleep was kept at bay and each morning she was more tired yet none the wiser.
"when would this end?"
that's the question that had kept repeating in her mind.
like a mantra been chanted everyday.
cried and screaming in silence.
nobody's listening.
nobody's care.
it's she,herself will kept on convicing her own self that
things gonna be alright.
nobody.
people words' or advises is just like a music.
finish listen to one track,go for another song.
come and go...
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