♥ FADHILAH

Thursday, August 7, 2008 { 10:55 PM }

To my dear rina and hajar,

thanks for being there for me...i know,by saying thank you is just not enough..
both of you had done so many things to me..i just cant find any words to describe on how grateful i am to be one of your friend list..
and i truly appreciate of what you girls had done..by giving me all the supportive comments already make my day..and because of your powerful words,i able to face this thing strongly and be able to swallow the bitterness..don't worry..your faddy will be back soon..its just that she needs a vacation..she's going to this island called super saddness and emo island..she'll be back soon..just wait for her kays??heheheheee..
lastly,i love you girls laaa...i truly miss you girls so much...i always counting the days on when we 4 could be together and we have exactly 38 more days left starting from today..hehe..lets coundown together!=)
once again,thank kiu very much sayangs!!!
MWAH!!!!
=)

love,
fadhilah

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and to my dear yinnn..

thank you too love..im sorry if i hurt you..i know you understand how i feel because like what you said at your blog,you had witnessed on how hard i've been tru on just wanting to get a new handphone..its just that sometimes i just cant control my emotions..im sorry yinn...
and thanks for being there for me..i know you busy with your school work,test,tons of project,exam..but...the thing that im truly touched is, you will always have time for me..
you sacrifice your own time on just wanting to be there for me..
thank kiu soooo much...and i did not regret to have a bestfriend like you who can only tolerate my short-tempered attitude and my stuborness =)

love,
fadhilah

Wednesday, August 6, 2008 { 10:57 PM }

salutation world

theres too many bad things happened to me lately and i don't know why this happen to me..
im just feeling so clueless.numb.terrified and until now trying to figuring it out on why this thing could happen..
emotion takes control every organ in my human body..
mind keeps flashing back on what had happened and making me even wannna cry...
feeling of anger..sadness..and this heart of mine is full of revengeness..hoping that one day,this stupid JACKASS will face his retribution due to his own wrongdoing..

working life in ward 49 is another one stressfull thing which i've already added.
on the 5th of august, something really bad had happened..
i shall not elaborate this thing.for those who knew it,i hope this thing will not being spread..
That incident really shaken me up and making me even more restless of wanting to go to work..

AND ON THE VERY SAME DAY, SOMETHING MORE WORST HAPPENED..............
its like things happened from bad to worst of the worst of the worst ever!

handphone model NOKIA 5610,being snatch just like that!
yes..its my handphone which i'd just bought last 5 months ago was being snatched by someone.
it happened so fast until i don't know what to do during that incident..i don't know whether i should chased that person or not..
i was talking with someone on the phone and wanted to headed back home when suddenly a guy from nowhere snatches my phone from behind and ran off..just like that...
terrified to do anything..whole body was shaking..

got to do what i have to..everythings done and all i' hoping for is to get my hp back..
i need it badly..
that is my favourite handphone..i bought it using my own money and now...its gone just like that..gosh......
i won't be able to contact all my friends.. ='(
it feels like half of my soul is being taken..yes...my hp is my life..without it,im useless..
im just like a body..without a soul entering the body,im nothing...
sighhhhhhhhh...............~~~~~
-__-"
now i reallyyyyyyyyy need someone....
RINAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....YINNNNNNNNNNNN...HELP ME..........!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, August 4, 2008 { 10:47 PM }

hello there...

What will you do when everything that's good have to end just like that?You only feel it once or twice and the very next moment,you have to move on...move to a new environment..meet new people..all stuff??

i mean...come to think of it,its good laa...because you will get to know more people..it widen up your circles of friends and also your mind..

but the bad part is that...you have no idea how the person will be like..as in based on attitude..

which i hate this part the very most..

its soo sucks until i become more restless when wanting to go to this stupid new environment..

What????havent get use to it??give time???

nah...i doubt so...

i got this feeling that i wont be happy in this new ward...WHICH IN WARD 49!!!!! i wanna be in ward 47 ='(

and and...furthermore,i feel like i've been lock up in the dungeon..where theres a dragon guard outside and will kill whoever wants to save me..

Okay..its lame...ARGH!!!WAT AM I TALKING ABOUT!!!this is so out of topic!!

im out of my mind already laa...

to be truefull...i don't like my new ward...

the nurses out there is completely annoying and they make me nuts!!

today.when taking report,they were like talking to themselves like as if we, the student nurse here arent exist...we stand there like a statue and they talk softly...

WAT THE..........................@$%#$%#@#$%#$@#@$%#@@!#$%$%

there...a bunch of valgularities..

and the routine out there is wayyyyyyyyy tooooo different from ward 47...

-you have to sign in and out before and after you go for break which ward 47 don't need to do that stupid stuff.

-You need to ring the bell when you wanna go in the ward because the door will only be open during the visiting hour which WARD 47 DONT NEED TO DO THAT!!WARD 47's DOOR IS ALWAYS 24/7 OPEN!!

-The nurses out there is so unfriendly unlike ward 47..47 is sooooo wayyyyyy better man!!they know when to be serious and when to have fun...

This is compeletely insana man!! i wonder...how can my dear friend,hajar can endure with this shit...

and i feel so jealous of her...cos she will be going to ward 47...

trust me...she will definately have fun in the surgical ward sei...

ARGH!!!!RINAAAA HAJARRRRRR WATIIIIIIIIII I NEEEEEDDDDDDDDD YOUUUUU!!!

i know...i stilll have to face this shitty stuff...

and and trust me...after 5 weeks in that ward,my personality will be completely change sei...become more and more quieter..haiyooo....

GOOD LUCK FADDY!!!

okay....enuf of complaint...i know...probably your ears and eyes will bleed if i carry on like this...

today...before going back...we girls did took a picture..haha...i like that picture because my face look nice..hehehehe...

see picture above*

after work,meet my dear friend,hajar..

had fun talking with her man!!miss her loads!!plan to take pic but ended up talked crapp...hehe..

k laa..tats all for today...

pray for me so that tmr will be a better day...

plsplspls...(praying*)

and yes!!not forgetting....HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY HALIMA!!MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE...

seems that each one of my dear friends is becoming 19 years old as days pass by...hahahha...

=))

Sunday, August 3, 2008 { 9:30 PM }

To whome it may concern,

i know you have a hard time on managing all sorts of problem..it feels like as if the world has turn upside down and you feel like a useless person..
hey..i understand how you feel cos i've been through that too..
it feels like you are alone in this world and one one cares about you..
all you think is people put the blame on you..its like,you are the cause to this problem..
By doing stupid stuff wont bring you any good dear. in the end, you'll suffer and the problem will get more and more heavier..
Hey..watever happens, you still have me..i will always be there for you..
eventhough we just started our friendship early april this year,i already feel like as if we been friends for ages..somehow i can click with you and i really do enjoy being with you..
So when you feel like the world is crashing down,just search for me kays??
im rite beside you..super faddy will always come to the rescue..
cheer up k..
ily more!!

love,
fadhilah
=)
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okay tmr will be in the new environment..which is in ward 49..
woooooo...scary laaa sei...well..will update about tmr..
and and and...guess what??
IM GONNA MEET HAJAR TOMORROW AFTER WORK!!
CANT WAIT MAN!!!=)
i miss her fugging much!!!

k laa...i'll end here..need to get some sleep now..
i don't want a big black cirlce sticking around my eyes..hahahaha
good nite world..
=)