Friday, October 3, 2008
{ 4:18 PM }
hey there..
im sorry if i sound draggy..
been feeling soo useless this few days..
i know i know..
now is hari raya..
should be enjoying myself after fasting for one month..
well..
not exactly one month..
but...just cant help it..
this little brain of mine keeps thinking..
thinking of what had happened..
those sentences..
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sigh..
how i wish i could turn back time..
sometimes,i cant even recognise myself..
why am i being like this?
i started to be selfish..
rush things up...
i wanna change..
change to become the old me..
which is..
happily..being fair..being neutral..
no positive no negative..
just neutral..
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i just cant help it..
when i look at the mirror..
like as if the mirror going to crack!
see!
even the mirror also despise me..
feeling so shitty!
=(
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EMO!!EMO!!
i cant forgive myself of what i've done laa..
this will be my lesson..
i tend not to appreciate things/people that's around me..
yes!
thats my BIGGEST mistakes ever!
infact that's the most stupidest mistakes ever!
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i just know hw to teach myself a lesson!
i wont promise,
i wont say anything..
but for sure,
i will do something..
cos if i just say but never do,that is just another bullshit!
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to whom it may concern,
im sorry..
just gimme one last chance..just one..
loves,
faddy