Tuesday, April 7, 2009
{ 8:27 PM }
life is full of drama.
seriously, that's what she thought.
eventhough things can be as complicated as it is,
yet still, she be able to smile. cheer.
easy say, she can run but she can't hide.
no matter how much fun she created, feel the energy of joyness,
feeling miserable is still there.
intact.
there's a little sorrows deep down inside her.
sometimes she feel like dying.
how she wish god end her life fast and that can make a fullstop of her life.
nobody hurts. nobody will find her and no problem any further.
all put to an end.
how she wish it can be that simple.
that's what in her mind,
all the time wondering, second-guessing and visualising suprisingly distorted thoughts.
when night falls,
the most unbearable moment to face.
alone.
yes, the word, alone.
forced herslef to sleep but to no avail,
stayed awake all night,
running through all the unanswerable questions.
Each time her lids grew heavier and neared closing,
another question would be flung from the depths of her mind, forcing her lids to open again.
Much-needed sleep was kept at bay and each morning she was more tired yet none the wiser.
"when would this end?"
that's the question that had kept repeating in her mind.
like a mantra been chanted everyday.
cried and screaming in silence.
nobody's listening.
nobody's care.
it's she,herself will kept on convicing her own self that
things gonna be alright.
nobody.
people words' or advises is just like a music.
finish listen to one track,go for another song.
come and go...
Labels: truth feeling
Monday, April 6, 2009
{ 9:18 PM }
hey.. just a quick summarise aite this posting..
actually i don't have any strength to type laa..veryy super lazy..
friday,3th april 09..
well...went to do revision alone at woodlands mart...actually it's quite bored laa at home so i decided to do revision at there...just to kill time..furthermore im meeting princess syuhada late afternoon..immediately after her work finishes...actually i wanted to do revision with rina, at least spend time with her.. but she cant make it..but it's a miracle that we bumped into each other when i was on my way to the bus stop.. haha... so we went to woodlands mart and jalan2 at there for while..talked2... and when we want to go seperate ways, she gave me a kinder bueno! shocked sia! you did remember about the dare uh.. but i was just joking laa about the reward..
anyways...thanks for the chocolate love!
so...went to tampines to meet syu...heh...again...im late. but it's okay... had our dinner at food culture century square. and walked here and there and last stop is at starbuck. went to chill there...she copy my notes and yea...so off we go after that. went to MY HOME..wanted to meet mummy..but turned to be a sour moment.. idk laa..something happened..i felt hurt when someone said something. so ended up go back to aunt's house.
4 april 09. Saturday.
alone at home. but the special moment is that, i spend time with rina and her sis at creasent park.
both of them went for cycling..too bad i dun have a bicycle..sorry ehk rina that you have to tolak basikal because of me.. overall it was great! i had a great time.thanks love!
5 april 09. Sunday.
late afternoon went back to see mum.. plan to watch mission impossible 3 at home..but mum want to go out and eat... so the whole family go out and eat!!! yayyy!!! me,mum,dad and 2 cousins... went to afganistan to eat... mum and dad bought for me this dress.. and it's nice!!
love it! so at 10 plus off we go...
had a fun time with them...
but mum got ceritekan me...early in the morning my dad tibe2 mengamuk because he cnt find his bicycle key...its like...early in the morning arnd 7am...he mengamuk...gosh...i got back home...really scared to face him...takot kene marah ke ape..mampos...but it turn to be okay...just my luck!
heh...
okay...gtg...time is running out!
will update soon!
i'll update what i did today when i free aites...
cant wait for tomorrow's meeting!! meet the three girls!!! miss them sei!
Labels: FADDY IS HAPPY
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