♥ FADHILAH

Monday, September 7, 2009 { 8:30 PM }

finally attachment finished~~
must say...all the effort paid off...that i should thank god..
last day of attachment was at IMH..yea...its been great at there..
to all my dear team mates, its been great being wit you all..seriously we were like one big family...
and to hazy, thanks for the ride throughout the whole posting in IMH..
you're the best cousin cum friend ever! and thanks for helping and pushing me until im up to my standard..cheeros to you girl!
am now going back to school for CR week...
supposingly..for our class,BCLS will only be held when the term open BUT! its been brought forward!
is that a good thing???or bad??
idk..but for sure...i don't have mood for sudden stress..the level really shoot up drastically!
its this friday and monday...
i don't know how but i guess i have to do it...for once! for the last time..doing something which i don'r really like but its important to me.
well...no pain no gain..
today was the first day of CR week..
so far, it was fine.. get to see all the faces which i havent seen for quite some time..
its great to see most of my classmates get to go up to the next level...which is our very last 2.2 in campus..
as usual, people change..well that's include me too,i cant deny and i admit.
hopefully its a good change for me.something positive.
but...okay bear with me for while...i just need to let out something..
something or someone is really different..i don't know whether that person catch up my reaction of the face.but..for sure, i can sense...someone really realy already moving on...without me...
its really different...i don't know whether what i observe and think is true but that's my thought.
so many things i don't know. easy say, its like as if i just get to know you today.its like we just become friends. back to square one.
its really akward..its true that we talked.we always together. and i enjoyed that.seriously.but...the thing that make me sad is that..... you move on... without me...seems that you're happy with other people.yea..truly, i felt so left out.having to get to know what happened to you and your life from your own mouth..
i should be happy for you upon hearing that you're happy..but.........i don't know why..felt so down after get to know all this...
sometimes i wonder, am i not good enough for a friend..bestfriend..sister..everything...
i cant even have good conversation with you at times which i think we both aware of it...times that i wanna spent was left unspend..
but.. i didnt know...didnt know that all this can led to be this way...
eventhough am with you, somehow, am kinda miss you... i always asked myself, is it possible we go back to the start...
i always miss the person that i'd known since the day we became friends.
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